Memories of Childhood — Zitkala-Sa & Bama
"The cutting of my long hair... I moaned for my mother. No one came."
1. About the Chapter
Two EXTRACTS. Two CONTINENTS. Two INDIGENOUS/OPPRESSED cultures. ONE SHARED EXPERIENCE: the MOMENT a child realises the world is CRUEL — and that the cruelty has a NAME (racism, caste).
PART I: 'The Cutting of My Long Hair' — Zitkala-Sa
About the Author
- Zitkala-Sa (1876–1938): Native American (Yankton Sioux) writer, musician, activist
- She was taken from her reservation and forced to attend a white missionary boarding school — designed to 'kill the Indian and save the man'
What Happened
- Zitkala-Sa (called Gertrude by the whites) arrives at the Carlisle Indian School
- She is ASHAMED of the 'tight' clothes the white women make her wear. 'I felt as if I were being dragged about like a wooden puppet.'
- THE INCIDENT: The school authorities decide to CUT HER HAIR. For Native Americans: LONG HAIR is sacred — a symbol of identity, strength. SHORT HAIR = MOURNING or DEFEATED WARRIOR.
- She KNOWS they're coming for her hair. She HIDES. Under a bed. In a dark room. But they FIND her. They drag her out. They tie her to a chair. They CUT HER HAIR.
- 'I moaned for my mother. No one came. In my anguish, I cried aloud, but no one heard me.'
- Her IDENTITY is LITERALLY cut from her. Her culture, her dignity, her self — CUT.
Themes
- Cultural Erasure: The 'school' was designed to DESTROY Native culture and 'assimilate' Native children into white society
- Resistance and Defeat: She HID. She FOUGHT (kicking, scratching). She LOST. But she REMEMBERED. And she WROTE.
PART II: 'We Too Are Human Beings' — Bama
About the Author
- Bama (Faustina Mary Fatima Rani, b. 1958): Tamil Dalit writer
- Her autobiographical novel 'Karukku' is a landmark of Indian Dalit literature
What Happened
- Bama, a young girl, is walking home from school. She sees an ELDER from her community carrying a packet of VADAI (snacks) by the STRING — NOT touching the packet. He is holding it out, away from his body.
- Bama finds this HILARIOUS. 'A big man, carrying a tiny packet by its string like that!' She runs home, laughing.
- Her ELDER BROTHER explains: The elder is NOT being funny. He is DALIT. He is carrying the packet by the string because he is NOT ALLOWED TO TOUCH IT — his touch would 'pollute' the food. This is UNTOUCHABILITY.
- Bama's reaction: SHOCK. ANGER. HUMILIATION. 'I had thought he was being funny. But it was not funny at all. It was the most degrading thing I had ever seen.'
Her Brother's Advice — and Her Response
- Her brother tells her: the ONLY WAY to escape this humiliation is EDUCATION. 'Study well. Learn all you can. If you are educated, people will come to you of their own accord.'
- Bama STUDIES. Becomes a WRITER. Uses her education — exactly as her brother advised — to FIGHT the caste system through her WORDS.
Themes
- Caste and Untouchability: The everyday, 'ordinary' humiliation of being Dalit. The vadais. The string. The laughter that turns to rage.
- Education as Liberation: Her brother's advice. Bama's life. Knowledge IS power — especially for the oppressed.
3. Common Themes — Both Extracts
1. The Moment of Awakening
Both Zitkala-Sa and Bama experience a MOMENT when they REALISE the world is not what they thought — that their identity (Native American, Dalit) marks them as INFERIOR in the eyes of the dominant culture. This moment is the CRUEL COMING OF AGE — childhood innocence SHATTERED by racism and caste.
2. Resistance Through Memory and Writing
Zitkala-Sa DID NOT FORGET. She WROTE. Bama WENT TO SCHOOL. She WROTE. Both turned their PAIN into TESTIMONY. Writing is their RESISTANCE.
3. The Body as Site of Oppression
Zitkala-Sa's HAIR. Bama's TOUCH (the vadais carried by string). Oppression is not just LAWS and POLICIES. It is INSCRIBED ON THE BODY — what can be touched, what can be cut, how one must carry food.
4. Conclusion
Two childhoods. One shared experience:
- ZITKALA-SA: Her hair — her identity — CUT from her. 'I moaned for my mother. No one came.'
- BAMA: A packet of vadais. A string. A laugh that became ANGER. 'It was not funny at all. It was the most degrading thing I had ever seen.'
- BOTH WROTE: Their memories are WEAPONS. Their childhood pain became literature — and literature is a form of JUSTICE.
'Memories of Childhood' — two girls. Two cultures. Two moments of awakening. One message: the oppressed REMEMBER. And they WRITE. And their words outlast their oppressors.
